An Emerald Day
2022 was the year that I survived. And not a whole lot else, but just one little step forward at the end.
The Thirteenth Hour
Before, my life felt like I was always running a labyrinth. Always hearing a screaming baby in a distant place, never able to reach it, constantly yanked in different directions, racing against a time frame that didn't exist. But now the whole thing has been razed, disintegrated.
What Even is Time?
When it rains, it pours. When an Angeleno leaves LA for any subjectively significant time, one’s re-entry is provisional until they’ve seen their therapist. I…
Midsummer State of the Blonde
It's been a non-stop shit-show of people telling me I'm so amazing and deserve better then turning around and letting me down by choice. And the impact really can't be summed up in a paragraph or two.
When Truth Holds You Hostage
But on the other days, the ones I can push through, the healed (or healing) part of me asks “Why don’t others believe they deserve me? Why do they fear what they want?”
Taking A Deep Breath… and Holding It
Why I am taking a break but not really going anywhere.
The Art of Radical Self-Trust
As a writer I have always believed in trusting the reader. If a writer fails this, the prose suffers. It is where walls of text and overwrought exposition is born and storytelling goes to die.
What Five Years in L.A. Have Taught Me
Things I couldn't have learned anywhere else.
Stuff No One Tells You About Dying Pets: Guilt and Relief
Your pet will always depend on you, fully, and that’s honestly a source of the joy they bring to our lives. Someone who always needs you feels so good to care for. We never stop parenting them; they never leave the nest. Despite their aging and intelligence, dogs, in particular, develop about the same mental capacity as a four-year-old. They truly are always children.
My Dog Died But I’m Still Going to Try and Finish NaNoWriMo
Most people who read this and already know me know very well what I'm about to talk about: Czar died on the morning of November 5. And yet, I am going to push forward with my projects as a way to cope and find my new normal.
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